Mad

My dad just asked me: "Are you interested in architecture?"

I said: "No."

My mum then asked me: "What about law?"

I said: "No."

My mum then stated: "But you like to talk so much."

First of all, the fact that I talk so much has absolutely nothing to do with wanting to do law!!!!! Secondly, 

I ALREADY TOLD MY PARENTS WHAT I WANTED TO DO BUT THE DON'T WANNA LISTEN 

And it makes me really like mad. They tell me to study what I am 'interested' in. I tell them. I told them I wanna study psychology. 

THEY LAUGHED AT ME

Oh my gosh. I thought well, psychology would be like a safer option than acting or performing arts. Something my parents might idk back me up on. Support me on studying. BUT NO. My mum said it was like "all those la la za za (neither here nor there) things I wanna do"

WHAT THE HECK

I'll have you know psychology is a profession and it is a very high paid job.

What neither here nor there?!??!?!?!?

When I tell other people I wanna study psychology they actually look very surprised (in a GOOD WAY) with the same type of reaction you'd get if you tell them you wanted to be a doctor.

BUT SOMEHOW MY PARENTS FIND IT VERY AMUSING AND WANT TO LAUGH AT ME

And they even ask if I wanna be some gay architect or something??!?! NO!

I already told them want I wanna study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Argh! They are all like "You should study what you are interested in."

And I tell them and they are not willing to accept my answer!! WHAT IS THIS?!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!

I want to cry now. I am suppose to choose the subjects for my Year 10 by MONDAY and so far the subjects I am considering on taking are based on the fact that I would be studying PSYCHOLOGY but now idk what to do!!!! If my parents keep up with this wanting me to be some gay crap lawyer shit, I have totally no idea what sub I should take.

And they are like can you hurry up and make your mind.

LIKE HOW CAN I WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN LISTEN TO WHAT I'M TRYING TO TELL YOU?!??!?!??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!@#$%^&*(()

Lyrics

I remember you
As the one I fell in love with
The one I fell in love with

Now as our eyes meet
Everything starts playing back
In my head

Sometime when you're looking through old photographs
And you relive the memories in your head
It's hard to forget that those are just memories

It seems like I've been forgetting a lot recently
Like forgetting to forget you

But I can't hide from the fact
That me without you
Is like lyrics without a melody




It's just not as good.

What does the future hold?!

So we had an information night tonight about the subjects provided in Year 10 and like..


SIAO I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO CHOOSE




I feel so stupid like everyone has it all figured out and then there was me who is completely clueless.






Anyways I told my mum I wanted to major is Psychology next time and she laughed at me. Which made me very pissed like wth fine if that is not good enough for you I'll go and be a rubbish collector. Hope that makes you proud.


It's a stressful!!!!!! MY PARENTS ARE SUBCONSCIOUSLY GIVING ME ALOT OF STRESS




:'(

TRUST

My mum has no trust in me. After 15 longs years of watching over me like a hawk/nagging at me/ keeping me locked in a cage like a dog she still have no decided to trust me.


So Darius's bday is coming soon and it's at his house and his parents aren't going to be there. AND I CANNOT GO. WHY!??!?!


BECAUSE HIS PARENTS ARE NOT GOING TO BE THERE. ER SO?!??!?!??!



When my mum says stuff like you can't go because there will be no adults around it actually means I don't trust you enough yet.

Which pisses me off. I do NOT understand why I am not given this trust. Like what's the worse that could happen?!?!??!


My mum thinks I'll have sex or get drunk or make out or something since there are no adults around. Well FYI if I wanted to do all those I can easily do that too even WITH adults around so I totally do not see the point. AND. WHY WOULD I DO STUPID THINGS LIKE THAT?!??!?! Don't my parents like think that they have taught me well enough to protect & respect my own body??!?!?!? AND. WHO THE HECK WILL I HAVE SEX WITH!???!?!??!?! ALL THE GUYS IN MY CLASS ARE PRACTICALLY GAY!!! AND HELLO WHO WOULD WANT TO MAKE OUT WITH SOME BALD FLAT GIRL?!?!??!?!?



NO ONE.



SO WTH DO THEY WORRY SO MUCH WTH I CANNOT EVEN



I'm going overseas in about 3 years. I CAN'T EVEN TO GO DARIUS'S HOUSE FOR HIS PARTY WTH DARIUS IS LIKE PRACTICALLY MY BROTHER.


Imagine when I go overseas wth there will be plenty of parties with no parents around. And there will def be more sex and drinking. Drugs even. So if they don't even let me experience a little party like this one, how do they expect me to react when I go to parties like those??!?! Okay lah, let's say I DON'T go to parties like that, but what about the people and things happening around me.

WHY WON'T MY MUM LET ME BE EXPOSED TO A LITTLE MORE THINGS OF THIS WORLD SO I DON'T FREAK OUT AT THE AMOUNT OF FREEDOM I GET WHEN I GO INTO U?!!!


Ever heard of the phrase that if you keep a bird caged too long, once you let it out it will never return?!??!?! WTH I am in this stupid cage and I might never return if you don't let me out once in a while.

You are so weird but I love you anyways

So this blog has become a place where I just write letters to you. So here goes.



Dear you,



You are weird. I don't understand why you still care. Well I do understand, but like if you still care why did you just leave me here with a broken heart for 4 months??!?!?!??!?!















*faints*

Forever?

I am not a very nice person. I mean people automatically assume I'm nice due to the fact that I went bald and such but that doesn't make me nice it makes me like idk caring for the less fortunate.


WHICH IS DIFFERENT FROM NICE.

I'm not even nice to people I like wth! I have this innate capability to hurt people without knowing it! WTH what type of horrible person am I!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAY SO NOW FOR RANTING (wth the beginning wasn't even a rant)



AND I AM SO MAD AT PEOPLE WHO
MISUSE THE WORD FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!


Okay, I totally understand why people say I love you too often. It's cause they think they're in love. And that's like okay. Cause like the heart has it's way of tricking the mind into feeling things that aren't real. I don't blame people for that. I mean I say I love you too much to stupid people who don't deserve it but I said it cause I actually did mean it. I did love the person.


BUT FOREVER!??!?!??! WTHHHH



You CANNOT promise someone your forever at this age. BECAUSE THAT IS JUST CRAP.


Okay. Fine maybe you can. If both of you devote your whole life to each other and don't let lust or emotions take over! And yes it does happen but like it's highly unlikely that you're one of them. Because after a while, you'll get bored of a person and then love would be a decision not just a mere emotion!!!


But even if you want to promise to love someone, DON'T TELL THE PERSON! KEEP IT TO YOURSELF!!! BECAUSE PROMISES AREN'T MEANT TO BE BROKEN. AND A PROMISE LIKE THIS IS VERY VERY EXTREMELY HARD TO KEEP!!!!!!!!!!!


HOW DO YOU EXPECT YOURSELF TO MAKE SUCH A BIG DECISION TO LOVE SOMEONE FOR ETERNITY AT THIS AGE??!?!??!?!

You'll prolly go to Uni and you guys will prolly be separated and keeping a relationship would be hard!!!! It's definitely possible, but distance is a reason why MANY couples break up!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I just can't stand people who make empty promises and end up breaking people to pieces afters. Stupid. Plain stupid.

Goodbye, don't come back

I don't understand. It seems that you are fine, you are happy and that makes me happy too. You seem to have found someone better and I'll happy. Like genuinely happy. Not those like 'I love you so as long as you're happy I'll be happy' crap.


I am happy for you.


BUT WHY ARE YOU STILL HANGING AROUND. WHY CAN'T YOU GO AWAY FOREVER. I HAVE NO INITIATIVE OF MENDING THINGS WITH YOU ANYMORE. WHEN I DID YOU DIDN'T CARE SO

HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ME TO CARE NOW?!??!

You have torn my heart, stomped on it and practically laugh in amusement at the process of it. Idk what more you want to do now. You're constantly around but I'm still invisible. Why can't you go away and let me invisible?! Won't that be better for both of us?! I'd rather that.


Remember the promise I made? Well who knew you'll be the reason behind it now.


Ugh I don't like you. I don't like you at all.



Okay I'm probably being selfish. I mean we share the same circle of friends. Asking you to leave is kinda illogical. But like WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS IN MY FACE OMGSH


I've never felt such hurt, anger, frustration & confusion. Why are you doing this to me?!??!?!??!?!









I'm sorry. Maybe it's my PMS that's why I'm reacting this way.

OUR NATIONAL HERO: DATO' LEE CHONG WEI

IDK HOW MANY VIEWERS I HAVE BUT DO WATCH THIS AND SHARE IT WITH 

LEE CHONG WEI SO HE'LL BE ABLE TO WATCH THIS TOO!!!!!!

What we have will never fade

YOU WASTED MY NIGHTS

So.



The Dramatic Arts club was planning on a food sale and our headmistress totally like made all this rules till it was almost impossible to earn a good profit. So after all the preparation and what not. We decided not to have the sale.


AND I SPENT LIKE 4 HOURS LAST NIGHT MAKING THE POSTERS. *rude gesture*


So since I can't put them up, I thought I might as well post them here. Wth it's not like anyone would read this anyways.




Poster 1:

So for this poster I went for a more like simple layout. 

Only it turned out not so simple cause it's super messy and there are like words everywhere...

Poster 2:

So for this one I was going for a more boy-ish feel. Thought it might target a different audience. 

Personally I'm quite happy with this one. I think it looks super cool. *pats self on the back*

Poster 3:

K I super love this one. My favourite one! I like the colour and the layout and all. 

I think it's super girly and pink so hahahah what's not to love!!

SO I SPENT THE WHOLE NIGHT MAKING ALL THIS POSTERS AND THEN THEY TELL ME NO FOOD SALE ANYMORE. 

*flips chair* 

*flips table* 

*flips house* 

*flips earth*

P/S WTH I CANNOT SPELL. LAGSANA?!?!? APATU?!?!??!?!?!?!