What I do not understand is why I cannot talk to my own parents. What I do not understand is why they ask me questions they already have the preset answers to. I don't even know if I wanna take a gap year like this anymore. How am I suppose to go help out in different ISCFs, in my youth, in where ever God wants me to be, if my own parents, does not even support how active I am in church?
My dad is a freaking church leader.
I want to cry.
They ask for my opinion but they don't even listen! I don't even know why the heck they even ask then. I am their possession. They are to enforce rules on me, according to what they think is best. Not always best for me, mind you, but best for them.
And so because of my parents lack of understanding and willingness to let me speak or to hear me out, I cannot go to the Spirit Awaken talk. And I don't even wanna fight back anymore. If they wanna win, then let them win. I don't even know what to do, what to say. I don't know why my parents won't listen to me. My words are empty in their eyes. I am a child. They know EVERYTHING better than me. I am never right! I understand that they are older, and they have seen more and experienced more. I know I am wrong sometimes too. But am I ALWAYS wrong??????
BECAUSE EVERY SINGLE TIME I HAVE A DIFFERENT OPINION I AM WRONG
I want to cry
God can you please tell me why? Oh it's so hard because my family, my own family is my first obstacle. And because I have to honour, because I am called to respect and to obey my parents I must do so. Oh if it wasn't for God I would have gotten into such a big fight.
Ugh God. Please please help me.
I don't understand why my parents won't let me go to church when my friends go to clubs and get drunk and all that. I WANNA GO TO CHURCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can't they see that because I wanna go into full time ministry that I must equip myself spiritually WAY MORE than I should learn chemistry?!?!?!??!?!!?!? I do not understand them one bit. Note to self: do not ever prevent your child from seeking God.
Never ever do that.
Unreasonable.
